curled up bodies intertwined i am begging to know you
not in touches and moans but in quiet whispers.
i crave your
sober thoughts in inebriated tones,
because they send shivers
down my spine in their truth.
now some people call me foolish in youth,
but i have led an old life and when i tire you with
my rants and my fears you do nothing else but keep them.
you can see the light through these scars and
though i think some of them make you see stars still -
you continue to just love me.
curled up ten fingers joined at two hands i am begging to understand you
i see you smile hear your choice of words but it's
the silence afterwards that confounds me
it confounds me and astounds me how comfortable you are just not asking why
i'm constantly uncomfortable asking how
how how how
you can do it
curled up eyes locked while we sit apart i'm begging to keep you away from me
i know i'm going to hurt you
i know the hell i'm going to put you through i going to chase you away
because i'm damaged and i know it and i refuse to let go and let change
rearrange everything - i may leave you emotionally disadvantaged
curled up alone staring at my phone you wish me goodnight and i don't reply
tomorrow i'll tell you i was already asleep but everyone - even god - knows
that's a lie.
I'm fighting not to miss you because when you're not here
i have to keep my head clear
and i'm hardened with the chance one day you'll be gone
call me an idiot but don't call it wrong
i only hurt once the hurting others is done
but curled up pieces fit together sometimes forced sometimes pressured
i know they warned you about a girl like me but honestly baby, you level me out
you set me free
curled up i'm begging you just hang on to me
curled up i'm begging you just confide in me
curled up i'm begging you just convince me
Curled up i'm begging you just keep loving me
Curl up until you just force me into
accepting that if you can love a thing like me,
i can be that thing for you.